Its been a while

I have been trying to get back to my blog that I was so excited about, until I went into labor, with our second child. From there on out I have been thinking that a little writing relief would do me good. However finding the time is like pulling hens teeth.

I now have a 3 1/2 year old and a 3 month old baby... I'm still working on time management, and believe me when I say it is not easy AT ALL!!! It drives me nuts to see my house a mess! But I find time during the day to clean up 10 messes only to turn around and find that my lil man has made three more. I have a difficult time trying to get him to clean up after himself because I have always done it for him. MISTAKE. I know I should have had him helping me all along but I enjoy the cleaning aspect of life. It keeps me busy.

I also find that I am still so obsessed with our new baby, that I haven't put enough mommy and me time aside for my little man. So I have been making sure for the last few days that I have an hour at the minimum to spend quality time together. I really don't want him resenting me later in life for not spending enough time together or  him having some kind of neglectful feelings because he didn't get as much attention as his sister. I am having a really difficult time balancing things right now but.... It will all work its self out in the end. Both of my children will know that I love them and would do anything to make them happy and well balanced. 

I hope one day they will understand the difficulty of parenthood. And be appreciative of the hard work and dedication that goes into it. I also hope that they get to enjoy the little things that mean the most with their children, from that first poop (i remember them both haha) to the moment they get to send them off to school. My moment is coming up soon and I plan to take a million pictures, have a good cry and then wander around the house that first day, because I know that first day at least I will be lost without him... 

Im not sure what to expect in the future of myself or my children but I do hope to give them values, manners and balance so they will never be too lost in life's hiccups.

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I enjoy this little family of mine.....